my day-to-day thoughts

i’ve been surrounded by lots of families with children lately. and let’s not jump to conclusion. we will not be having kids in the near future, as in the next year. BUT i’ve been thinking more about it as a reality and it’s been good and bad. every horror story and the ‘lack’ of freedom takes me one step back in embracing my future. and all the beautiful faces and anecdotes about the cuteness brings me two steps closer. haha of course i want kids soon and to be a young mom would be nice from what everyone’s been telling me because everything heals faster when you’re young. but i’m so selfish right now. i want to do so much without caring for a baby. but then again, after having kids, supposedly nothing in the past matters. those awesome vacations you took with your hubby won’t matter the moment you hold your baby in your arms (is what i was told). 

oh the dilemmas…whenever i pass by janie and jack or pottery barn kids at the mall, i’m always tempted to go in. and that huge baby picture next to pottery barn kids is the cutest little kid i’ve seen. you know you’ve seen it if you’ve been to southpark mall. you can’t miss him…or her? 

i always wonder how i’ll be as a mother? will i be even half the woman my mom is? i guess i’ll just have to see and find out later…